Monday, August 24, 2009
I'm v tired.. still loitering the streets.. Haven't been sleeping well for all sorts of reasons except for myself.. was supposed to help dad buy some stuff for his new bus today, but I ended up daydreaming in the streets, trying to keep my eyes wide open. I'm quite hungry now, and would probably grab a bite later, chill before I head home. All of a sudden, I'm feeling so stupid here. So stupid of doing what I have since done, all for a small little immature 24 years old boy. My parents see it. Dad talked to him, told him what a failure he has been, to have even burnt himself out as the project director. I'm supposed to be a nobody in this event, yet I am doing a lot more than what a commoner should. I've realised that I am no wonderwoman either. I'm sick after staying out in the drizzle last evening + the lack of sleep and the moving of bulky items here and there. I'm proud of myself to have done that though. At least I coped well. How many girls can actually move boxes of rices and oil in heels and skirts? My leg blistered and it hurt, but it's ok. At least I know I'm much better than most girls, and some guys even. To think that I pushed two empty trolleys down at the same time, and keeping them after that. =p
Relationships.. I'm pretty tired about that seriously. He's not the one who I am interested in. Today, I seriously peaked. And I ended up still not getting my breakup when he was the one who said that we could breakup when he feels extra frustrated. What rights do I have to break away from this? I have absolutely no idea. As long as relationship is concerned, my life is never fair with him around.
Just as good, while relationship is down, I am once again working hard for my studies, just that I'm still a little tired.. Slept only 4 hrs last night.. *yawns*
If he doesn't know how to take care of me, at least I should know how to take care of myself isn't it? With or without him, I know my family and friends are still there for me. People are being concerned over me feeling cold in the LT, looking v tired after lessons, telling me to take a rest etc. With that, I am contented. At least I know, there are others who care.. ;)
Looking on the brighter side, my 21st is just a few weeks away from now! It may not be a grand one, but I am expecting it to be a memorable one with all my friends around. =)
8:28 PM
Sunday, August 16, 2009
People around me and inclusive of myself are running into a bit of a relationship problem. Oh well, we are all coping fine I guess. For a better future that we sought. He's not the man for me. That's as far as I can say. I'm glad that I am the one who initiated this breakup. At least it feels better! ;) Hooray to singlehood! The one that I have always been looking for over the past few years! =p
21st birthday is just a month away from now. And erm.. One aunt of mine bought me a SK diamond necklace already. She's a nice one. Next, got to confirm the chalet, and send out the invitation together with my cuzzie. =))
6:30 PM
Saturday, August 08, 2009
Following the end of NUSSU Flag Day 2009, my energy only recovered after 2 days. LOL! =x Despite the bad economy, the NUS student population and staff have still gotten far to break our target, bringing in slightly more than what we have promised ComChest. That's something to be joyful about I guess. ;) The past 2 days of intensive coin counting duties was a physical challenge as me and my committee battled with our need for sleep and rest. 6 hours of graveyard shifts for two nights are compensated with relatively good outside food and company before and after the various shifts. It is undeniable that the project has made us more united as a family of volunteers. That's something that I am very proud of. If given another chance to be part of this committee, I will pick this up again at no second thought! =p
While I was on duty the past two days, stock prices went up again. Standing at + 500% of my original purchase price, my holding shares have earned 1 full year of my school fees. My mum is happy too (she holds the other half that we have bought together). Together, we make like thousands worth by just purchasing some low priced shares. It did drop a little on Friday though as investors start to abandon their shares due to the oncoming uncertainty. STI suffered quite a fair bit of losses with most shares going red when it closed. Well.. We'll see how things go. ;) Trading at under 21 years old has proven to come at much restriction. I had to get my mum to buy/sell on my behalf through her account, or have myself place a 5k deposit on lien in order to start a 'young investor's' account.
At any way, school is starting in 2 days time. I'm so looking forward to seeing my friends! Next year, most of them will be going on SEP, leaving just me and a few other friends behind. Awful? I guess not! We'll definitely enjoy ourselves! ;)
With the starting of a new term, I'm considering a couple of Youth Expedition Project to fully declare myself as a 'all-rounder' volunteer. HA! We'll see which project captivates my attention at the end of the day.
12:14 PM