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Monday, August 24, 2009

I'm v tired.. still loitering the streets.. Haven't been sleeping well for all sorts of reasons except for myself.. was supposed to help dad buy some stuff for his new bus today, but I ended up daydreaming in the streets, trying to keep my eyes wide open. I'm quite hungry now, and would probably grab a bite later, chill before I head home. All of a sudden, I'm feeling so stupid here. So stupid of doing what I have since done, all for a small little immature 24 years old boy. My parents see it. Dad talked to him, told him what a failure he has been, to have even burnt himself out as the project director. I'm supposed to be a nobody in this event, yet I am doing a lot more than what a commoner should. I've realised that I am no wonderwoman either. I'm sick after staying out in the drizzle last evening + the lack of sleep and the moving of bulky items here and there. I'm proud of myself to have done that though. At least I coped well. How many girls can actually move boxes of rices and oil in heels and skirts? My leg blistered and it hurt, but it's ok. At least I know I'm much better than most girls, and some guys even. To think that I pushed two empty trolleys down at the same time, and keeping them after that. =p

Relationships.. I'm pretty tired about that seriously. He's not the one who I am interested in. Today, I seriously peaked. And I ended up still not getting my breakup when he was the one who said that we could breakup when he feels extra frustrated. What rights do I have to break away from this? I have absolutely no idea. As long as relationship is concerned, my life is never fair with him around.

Just as good, while relationship is down, I am once again working hard for my studies, just that I'm still a little tired.. Slept only 4 hrs last night.. *yawns*

If he doesn't know how to take care of me, at least I should know how to take care of myself isn't it? With or without him, I know my family and friends are still there for me. People are being concerned over me feeling cold in the LT, looking v tired after lessons, telling me to take a rest etc. With that, I am contented. At least I know, there are others who care.. ;)

Looking on the brighter side, my 21st is just a few weeks away from now! It may not be a grand one, but I am expecting it to be a memorable one with all my friends around. =)



8:28 PM